Monday, November 15, 2010

Elijah {1 year old }

***WARNING: Heavy post...skip down to pics for cuteness ;) ***

Happy 1st Birthday ELIJAH!

On November 3rd, 2009 Elijah Cade Smith graced us with his presence around 6:20pm a few weeks earlier then expected. His birthday was not at all what I had hoped for but it WAS everything I NEEDED. Father God was there. Family was there. My baby was there. We were there...but for some reason as this year has gone by the memories of that day have become a little blurry to me. Pictures remind me of the day and the permanent change of my heart is the ONE memory that has not faded. My faith was absent that day. On the day that I had to leave my baby in NICU and go home I remember the song that was on the radio as we drove away from the hospital...."What Faith can do". I remember looking at Kevin and neither one of us had to say a word to each other to know what the other felt. In one word: PAIN!

The questions came later, the why and the how and again?? But the real question was "where was our faith?" I know I questioned over and over and over. People told me that Father God could handle anything I came to Him with but to just remember that ultimately it was HIS will for Elijah that we should be asking for. After all, He gave Elijah to us. This tiny precious gift, unable to breathe on his own or even be touched my his momma was Gods to begin with. Who was I to question HIS will for him?? It was that day that I called the church to have the family pastor come and pray over Elijah and on that day my very sick preemie lifted his head as if to say "AMEN!" and agree with us in prayer for Gods will for his life. :) It was that MOMENT that I reminded myself that if my 2 day old sick baby had faith then I could have it too! My precious son has taught me to seek Gods will for our lives...I am forever thankful for him. SOooo what did hearing the song have to do with anything?? Well remembering back to that day I feel like God was comforting me and Kevin through that song. We were being reminded that Faith can move mountains and give us the strength we needed to get through that storm or any other storm that may come our way. If not for our son Elijah Cade, I would not have been reminded that Father God is my comforter, protector and provider....everything my biological father was not able to be for me.


The Lord gave me life and life more abundantly through my boy. I love him because he is my baby boy but I LOVE him a little bit more because of his ability to give life to those he comes in contact with. God works through this little boy daily. He is the Fathers joy! And for that, I am eternally grateful.


There are no gifts great enough that would show Father God my gratitude except to offer Elijah back to the Lord which is what we will be doing when the time comes for Baby dedication at our church. Happy Birthday little man! It is our pleasure to raise you up to be the man of God that will bless others and continue to bring life to everyone you encounter in your life. May God continue to bless you and bless others through you as you grow my dear son. I love you.


Love, mommy

On a lighter note: some pics from elijahs birthday party! Rolly Pollies is our FAV place at this time so heres to another fun packed party for the Smith Kiddos:





2 comments:

karenhottubgal said...

Awesome awesome testimony Jacki! What a wonderful family. God is good!

Noelle Riman said...

I always find it amazing that we can reflect and find the meaning behind events in our life. Well said :)